A lot has happened since my last post. As the title suggests, I got a job. Not in IT, but back-office. Technically, it’s an IT firm; it’s just that I’m not doing anything IT-related. Unless you consider using Excel, printing, scanning, and creating sales offers “IT”. Nevertheless, it could have been a lot worse. Actually, at one point, I was manifesting working for this company, and basically all aspects of those sessions came true. Except for the pay, but I haven’t really specified that in my wishes, so I guess that’s on me, haha. It is not terrible for my first job or for the amount of work I actually do. My coworkers are really friendly and patient with me. To be frank, I was expecting this friendliness to be a mere facade, but I haven’t detected any deception yet. Almost all the people there really seem to be good people. But of course, I haven’t interacted with any of them outside of work yet. And it is also fair to mention that I’ve been working there for less than 2 weeks. Maybe, over time, their true colors will surface.

Anyway, I can call myself an adult now! Or at least, this is the point where I consider myself an adult now. I now have my own cubicle where I’m locked for 8 hours doing something I don’t particularly enjoy, but to be fair, there isn’t a lot that I enjoy. I’m still finding myself and building my identity. Before you can find something that you like, you have to try many things that you won’t like. What I know for sure is that I don’t like this. I don’t like slaving away, sitting at a computer, and building someone else’s dream.

This was a huge reality check for me, and I take 100% responsibility for my actions. To be brutally honest (mainly with myself), I pissed away 4 months worth of time this year. This whole year was really not the best for me. Out of my own initiative, or rather, the lack of it. I had many plans in January, and I did barely a fraction of them. I could have laid out a better foundation for myself that could have made my life infinitely easier, but there’s no point in crying over spilled milk. Each day I wake up, I have a new chance to make things right. As long as I breathe, I’m in charge of my destiny.

I will definitely have more time now to post more frequently. It’s a funny little trend running on my blog. “Sorry, I was busy; now I will post more often” is hopefully over now. I have plenty of drafts I would like to finish by the end of the year, so stay tuned, I guess…