You don't have to change

Orion

Jul 12, 2025 — 2 min read

I think the single scariest thing in this world, this universe, this plane of existence is the fact that you don't have to change.

Seriously, you can keep repeating the same mistakes, you can keep reliving the same lessons over and over again. That is the blessing and the curse of having a free will. You know, I have contemplated this idea longer than I probably should have. There is no true or false in this world. Some things are binary. Most aren't. Most are just shades of gray. Yet, this still implies that gray is the truth or the lie.

My point is that eventually you will grow. You will stop repeating those mistakes, you will stop being mean to others. I'm not saying it will happen in this life, but eventually, you will. That's the thing that bothered me about the idea of free will so much. The fact that you will come to the same conclusion. The fact that there is some universal truth, rule, blueprint. You have the freedom to repeat your mistakes as long as you wish, as long as you need to. Until you learn from them and stop.

But then it hit me, the final destination doesn't matter as much as the journey itself. It doesn't matter that we all reach the same conclusion, the same goal, the same place because our journey will be different and ultimately unique to ourselves. The uniform isn't something you should dread. It is something you should use to express yourself as much as you can. Try, fail, love, hate, grieve, cry, laugh as much as you can. Leave no stone unturned and explore everything this world has to offer. When you laugh, laugh like the room is filled with nitrous oxide. When you cry, cry as if your lacrimal sacs are bottomless, as if you're trying to drown your sorrow. When you're angry, let yourself rage, not to destroy, but to acknowledge and appreciate that something matters to you that deeply.